Monday, December 31, 2007
just another day
i guess it's save to say no one reads my blog anymore.
i kinda like it this way because i write what i want and when i want with no pressure to update just for the sake of doing so.
i just wanna say,
im lost.
in every sense.
nothing means anything anymore.
i might as well just disappear from the face of earth and no one would care.
happy 2008.
rae at Monday, December 31, 2007
Monday, February 19, 2007
YIPPIE YIPPE YAY YAY
wanted to blog bout my valentine's day.
wanted to blog bout my cny.
but, i just wanted to say...
i don't have to fucking touch my law and info systems books anymore!
burn!! burn!! step step step.!!
another smooth-sailing passing. phew.
rae at Monday, February 19, 2007
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
the death of music
new year, new changes right?
heeding advice from some mag,i decided to wrap the miserable amount of straggly shags that i call hair into two Chun Li buns (who doesn't know Chun Li must have a sad childhood.wtf)and tried desperately to sleep in comfort, maneuvering positions after positions just so not to thug my hair, and finally giving up in vain.
all in the name of getting curly hair.
in the morning, i undid my scrunchies, ready to admire the fruit of my labour, my loud "Hey presto!" trailed into silence.
the effect was more like a homeless lady who hasn't wash her hair for weeks.
yes, i see curls but badly-shaped ones.and a flattened top.
a tangle of mess.
i managed to salvage my hair by adding water to the ends to weigh down the curls and then blowing my roots from the bottom.the end results :)
front.
back.
my mad hand dance antics while listening to music cast my darling Creative mp3 into it's doom.
one wild fling of an hand and down it went, a hard smack on the floor.
now it's spoilt. *sulks*
I WANT NEW ONE >:P
rae at Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Monday, February 05, 2007
my dear friend, novia, is having qualms bout turning 21.
i can totally understand her. having the big "2" infront of your double-digit age is not at all glamourous as it seems.
like how women dread turning 40, eventhough they may be 39 and the difference is only a year.
it is the start of your skin giving in to gravity, it's elasticity fading rapidly without the ability to rejunevate at the rate it was.
the lost of collegen, a woman's best friend, in my opinion.
and from there, it all goes downhill.
no more wearing any clothing with even a teeny hint of youthfulness (young people will say you should dress your age).
less advancements from eligible bachelors (the "4" is a big turn-off).
probably lower sex drives due to womanly changes.
reaching the age of 40 means entering a totally new dimension...
every now and then when people asked about my age and when i do tell them, i get the same reactions.
"gasp! you are? but but but..u look like you are 20..er plus!"
"wow, very mature-looking for your age."
well, it only means one thing to me in my dicitonary, people think i look old la!! &*@#$^%^
sigh.
today i got to hold a chow chow and a toy poodle puppy.
the chow chow has the looks of a lifelike bear while the toy poodle resembled a teddy bear.
one was huge and the other was small.
one trots like a pony (freaking adorable i tell u!) and the latter-hop, run, hop, run!
one of the happiest day in my life.wtf.
i was there (in the petshop) to purchase hamsters for the dear friend.
apparently hamsters with slant eyes are dominant and naughty.
hamsters with doleful eyes, on the hand, are friendly and sociable.
we spotted a lovely breed of drawf hamsters with the slikiest texture of a fur.
i digress.
results are coming out in another 2 weeks' time.
this time around i can't predict the outcome of it.
hope i didnt make some stupid fundumental mistake and screw up the entire paper.
good day.
a tribute to my soulmate. wtf.
listening to Postmark Twain-Leave it all behindrae at Monday, February 05, 2007
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
is it right
i wonder is it worth it to get yourself hurt over a guy who doesn't know or even gives much of a hoot that your are hurting inside...
your responses over the phone leave me in puzzlement.
does that means that you still love me enough to response just to please me?
or you are overwhelmed with boredom and you hope by replying with grunts, monosyllabic answers the conversation will end soon?
i've never been much of a patient person, but when it comes to you, it knows no limit.
i blame myself for behaving this way, why can't i just be demanding in front of you?
maybe if i wasn't so relenting most of the times, you would sit up a little straighter if i throw tantrums then?
maybe if i exercise a little of self-control on my excitement when you call, then it wouldn't be sent off as annoying to you.
everytime i try to voice out my frustration, much to my dismay, it gets balled up behind my throat and hence the loss of words.
i can't bring myself to ever scold you, and i hate myself for it.
or maybe it's just guys?...
listening to Brand New
rae at Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
reminiscing
hmm..thinking back, year 2006 didn't really made much impression as a memorable one.
it's not entire fair to put it that way as well,there were a few meaningful(or memorable) events like
my 1st year anniversary with him,
near-disaster ny's eve,
crying at the altar,
starting acca course with no expections of it being a living hell,
making new and endearing friends,
the best bday surprise ever (twice actually! from friends and stinko),
family getting through a tough financial crisis,
double-eyelids becoming quite a permanent feature on my eyes *shrugs* (DID not undergo any cosmetic surgery or use any double-eyelid stickers),
of course, passing my first year of acca with not-bad results *pats self on the back*,
parents being aBIT more understanding hence very little major fights happened the past year,
come to realize i actually love my little bro alot and acttuuaalllyy enjoy spending time with him haha.
gaining back all the weight that i've lost in year 2005 :(.
for the moment, these are all i can think of.
next to come, new year resolutions!
HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone.
listening to The Good Tangerines-Evangelinerae at Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Sunday, December 24, 2006
To My Dearest J
you were always the sweetest and nicest among us, never failing to show your graciousness and helpfulness in times of need.
it became your best aspect of your personality but it turn, also became your weakness.
other people who gained this knowledge took advantage of you. for that, i hated them. WE hated them.
over the pass 2 years, you have learnt how to be nice but not unconditionally.
for this, i'm so proud of you j! some people need disappointment to slap them in their face then only they would wake up you know. :)
you have no idea how happy i am for you when you told me that (you know what i mean you sly devil *smirks*). i truly believe you deserve this happiness man. you are too gorgeous to be left alone like that hehe.
have a blast on your special day and merry christmas darling.
Happy Birthday christmas baby :)
eeee, so cute how can i not post this pic of u :P
nothing is more precious than this friendship
rae at Sunday, December 24, 2006
