Thursday, September 28, 2006

because only he cares and reads, i shall rummage through my mind for something worthy to be blogged about.
hmmm.. all i've been doing lately, in order:
wake up
online
go to classes
come back from classes, afternoon nap
wake up, watch chinese martial arts series-xiao yu er, my current obsession
online again
study bit
listen to music
more tv
back to the com
and then talk the bf
lastly, is to sleep
.................'


oh, my dog has been trying to get some kicks from my MALE.....CAT. if you know what i mean.
but i have yet to catch them in ACTION yet, cept from my dog trying to hump him from behind. he doesn't get far due to my constant interruptions to stop the gruesome, wrong, disgusting act. i certainly am not prepared to be scarred mentally by the sight of them doing it.
the reason i think he had never succeeded so far is because i don't think my kitty's asshole is big enough to engulf......ew.
my sis, whom owns the cat (a gift from bf) has declared war on my dog.
she never did liked the dog anyway.maybe only when he was a cute little puppy.

my shopping addiction is itching for a comeback.
i had no choice but to try curbing it since mom has been watching my spendings.
i really should be doing a birthday wishlist, but the things i want is way out of reach for a non-working, no-income 18 year-old.
but for now, the top of my list is to be skinny and tall!
and very importantly, world peace. and a cleaner environment.
gosh it hurts me to see reports on icecap-meltings, corals dying, animals becoming extinct everytime i flipped through my daily dose of newspapers.
if only people would instill a little discipline upon themselves not to litter, to recycle scraps of papers, to refrain from buying turtle eggs.
the sad part is the government doesn't seem to be doing much. that's why i love developed countries.
hey, the effects will come back to us in the end okay.

cash vouchers from cats whiskers anyone? hehehe.
or maybe smuggle me into a posh club, i have yet to step into one :P.

gosh, my blog's so boring! i hate loading pictures from cameras hehe.



listening to Dashboard Confessional

rae at Thursday, September 28, 2006

Saturday, September 09, 2006

too soon

for 1 whole year, i watched myself gained back all the weight that i've lost back in early 2005, and in disgust, not doing anything to amend it.
as my weight climbed the scale, my self-esteem slided all the way down the slope to almost being non-existent.
u may ask, why don't i do what i did back then to loose back all the weight?
for one, it's to painful and depressing to go through the whole process again. secondly, i do not have the motivation i have back at that time to enable my will-power to get going again.
but i wanted very bad to be atleast as thin as i used to be, before i flunked all my determination and will-power tests, giving in to temptation most of the time if ppl weren't there to nag, scold or remind me. i wasn't happy about the way i looked.
soooo, thanks to the bf who is being very supportive
, i passed my first week of dieting and on my way to the second week! yay
a few days ago, while i was busy studying with my bunch of col mates, a friend of mine whom i wasn't really close to asked me THE question.
"hey rae, have u slimmed down? cause u looked thinner," *halellujah, halellujah, halellujah ( angels playing trumpets come to the scene)*
i couldn't conceal my delight and gleefully said "really??!! you think so??", while subconsciously placing my hands on my waist to feel if there was really a difference.
see, i don't usually suck up to compliments because of bitter friends i had during my younger scondary school days who wld play nice and sweet infront of you but be bitches from hell once you turn away. i've learned my lesson and thus now exercise wariness when receiving compliments from people.
but this time i acted differently la haha.
ok so that was the end of the conversation as i had to go home early.
the next day, she sat next to me in class and i asked what made her think that i was thinner.
"haha, your face looks thinner loh"*rocks fall on head*
aiyer, for people who do not know me, i already have a thin face which my sister says doesn't belong to the baloon body i have.
so all for nothing la now.

but my clothes do feel abit looser.for now.hehehe.

but but but, the ice-cream in the fridge looks sooo inviting.


listening to Coheed and Cambria

rae at Saturday, September 09, 2006

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

lately i have been up to nothing but studying and revising for my progress tests, one after the other! my law lecturer thinks that we are super so she prepared our upcoming test based on the entire book 1!! thuffffff..and we only had about 6 lectures.
this semester really is the most taxing ever in the entire history of my studying life! lots of memorizing work to be done this time around. i did not sign myself up for this shit >_<
i have been rather depressed lately.
maybe it's the low sugar intake.
maybe it's because my past insecurities have come to haunt me again.
maybe it's because i lack experience in the love field.
maybe it's because i failed to express my feelings.
maybe it's because of the stress.
maybe, it's because of everything.

i need to whack something..


listening to Gym Class Heroes

rae at Tuesday, September 05, 2006